beware of the rambling fashion sheep.

Fashion condemns us to many follies; the greatest is to make ourselves its slave.
Napoleon Bonaparte
Hi, my name is Belle and I am a slave to fashion. For a long while, I was oblivious. I went through a phase where I would dress only in luxurious and outrageous layers of petticoats and dresses--all floral, by the way. I would never leave the house without a bonnet. I still have the dress from when I was five, that I would refuse to eat for days because sometimes I wouldn't fit into it. If I had any chance in hell that I could fit into it today I would probably still be doing it.

Then, I went through a phase where I hated dresses. I mean, throw a dress at me and I would melt and writhe and growl and scream. This is also known as my ''emo bitch'' phase, in which middle school involved being a teacher's pet and applying eyeliner haphazardly because I thought it made my eyes look bigger. (What was I thinking?)

Looking back I realize I haven't changed much--I love dressing up, and I love dressing down. The middle ground is the boring part. But now, it's like I'm so aware of what's in and whats out that I sometimes I can't enjoy myself and what I'm wearing because I judge myself so critically. All I'm seeing is tribal prints (too bold? too frumpy?) and then floral (grandma chic or trashy ho?) and who I'm dressing up as (is that you, Kate Moss? is that you, Lou Doillon?). It gets tiring after awhile.

I'm not saying I don't love being around all of this, knowing what I know. I've come to really appreciate what people in the Industry do. There's something to be said for someone who can predict the trends and get them to print, organize photoshoots and style them and not go insane after years. Hell, I've only been obsessed for maybe a year or two and I can't even imagine what it must be like to be this crazy and get paid for it.

It's just that when I wake up in the morning, I don't want to be more aware of the trends than I am of school. Fashion and the people that deal with it have given me so much to smile about; I know it's the reason my parents are together still and the art form I am most likely to go into if any at all. Still, I'm a little scared at the thought of sacrificing my personal identity to that of what I'm told is what is in fashion right now. I don't want to care about that. I want to put on what looks and feels right on instinct, not by any persuasion.

The fact remains, though, that I am always going to be influenced by the words of others in the Fashion Industry. How could I not be? And I admit it wholeheartedly--I am a fashion pirate, after all. I don't think I'll ever be instinctively stylish like those I look up to so much; you either have it or you don't.

Maybe I do have it, but it's just buried underneath all the obsession over bullshit trends and it items. I've just got to breathe and look for it. I've got to try not to follow the crowd.

So, my mission indefinitely: embrace what I like and what I am for the right reasons-and don't put up with anything less.

14 comments:

Zoƫ said...

mhmm gurlll say ittt

Belle said...

you have an rss feed of my blog built into your brain, don't you? always the first to comment. ily.

bewkworm said...

serioulsy zoe, do you have some kind of alarm that goes off? or do you just constantly moniter her every movement?

the_kitten said...

Copying trends and other people, like celebs, is not something you can call your own style, can you?? I mean, it's nice staying up to date and get infiltrated by trends and tendencies which possibly somehow work their way in your wardrobe in the end, anyways, but really be alert about what you 'need' and 'must have' is just the wrong attitude, me thinks. Furthermore, those people don't 'predict' the trends. Ever wondered why you're running after what the industry says? They MAKE the trends and their main goal is to sell them. If I was to make my own clothes in pink, easiest is to spread word that pink is the next black. Even better if I have Vogue-editors as friends. What sells better than sex and what people think is cool and very right now.

Stephanie said...

YEAH!!!
Haha I was really tempted to write Amen! but I thought it might be a little creepier.

aizat.cinta.goddess said...

love the post.im also a fashion slave..

Belle said...

The_kitten: thank you for taking the time for aycb a detailed reply! All I can say is yes, yes, yes-- I completely agree with you on the points you brought up!

Stephanie: ahahaha, its ok, I don't think you're a creeper either way.

Aiza.cinta.goddess: thanks so much for the response, glad to know im not alone.

lovekylie said...

Love this. Sometimes I worry that I'm too caught up in worrying about fashion than I am my life at times. My friend just got mad at me the other day when I was supposed to be helping with a project and all I did was sit on the computer and look at style.com and fashion blogs. So all of that last post was completely understandable. :)

Belle said...

Thanks for commenting kylie. I've done the same thing, glad im not alone =x

Anonymous said...

I'm too lazy to read the whole thing, but all I know is that we should have an H&M at Newport.


Trivia: Arabelle doesn't share cheesy fries.

Oh btw, this is Ralph. That kid like two posts below.

Belle said...

Lazy bum. Whatever, I love you anyway.

I think I'm weird, but I wonder how many people at school know I have this blog. Definitely more than most bloggers. Eh. I don't care. =3 I like you nerds.

H&M @ newport > hollister @ newport.

life sucks.

Anonymous said...

amen, sister.

Urban Audrey said...

I completely agree. Sometimes I'd just rather be oblivious to trends and whatnot. Maybe ignorance is bliss?

p.s. wanna trade links? I'm a big fan of your blog

Belle said...

Sometimes I wonder, sometimes I wonder..

I'd be honored, I love your blog as well!