04 November 2011

this is my armor and you can't chip it

novfirst06

 Sooo a change in scenery seems to be in order! I love the basement but the lighting completely sucks and the dorm maintenence crew likes to creep by and judge me a lot so I moved for today. I like it! Reminds me of my bedroom back home but I have way more room here. I noticed how much my last couple of outfits on the blog kind of blend together, and IRL they don't, but my favorite outfits usually are in this palette and with variations of this jacket or that skirt and that top. My roommate has more clothing than me in the dorm! No one understands it but it's because I have narrowed down my clothes. I mean I have an obscene amount of clothing, like, 4 closets technically, but I decided to only bring what I love and can't live without and it's surprisingly very little. And I haven't been compelled to buy anything recently, because what I want is very specific and I don't want to buy anything less than my dream items.


novfirst01

I actually get into arguments with my roommate (in a good way, we're very good friends from High School. I think she was one of the first people I bothered telling I was homo? I was never in the closet I guess if you were to think about it, because I never realized being straight meant you couldn't think about girls....derp) about clothes a lot. Like, she has so much more of it at our dorm -- her closet is twice as full as mine -- but she dislikes it more and doesn't wear probably 80% of it. The way she gets dressed is a lot different from mine, and the way she approaches clothing is much different than how I approach it. Granted, I approach style, fashion, and just getting dressed differently every day because I don't feel like the same person on a day by day basis. I used to use it as a means to purposely differentiate myself and have fun and get around my school dress code and just revel in direct translations of my inspirations, but now I don't think so much about it.

novfirst04

 For the first few years that I got into fashion I used to scorn people who wore really basic, black outfits, etc, and swore I'd always "be ~unique~" and whatever that shit but now I think I feel most myself in simpler compositions and palettes. I mean, I am totally happy wearing colorful outfits (I am a color queen, let there be NO DOUBT) but whenever I feel very unsure of myself or even just very happy, just in general very something -- I always return to the sentiment that my favorite clothes are my armor and my friends. They will never fail me. And most of my favorite clothes just happen to be darker and have richer textures and are very delicate and strange. Clothes give me agency where talking often fails. I've become very introverted and introspective in the past few years and my favorite films and my favorite songs and my favorite clothes got me through. I can be a feminist and also love fashion because I believe that your style and how you approach the industry and dissect and create the media can give you agency, give you a voice, give you strength. Passion in any form, like getting dressed (even if that is a simple form), just says that I am here and that I exist and I am not ashamed.

novfirst05

24 comments:

Caitlin said...

Cute! I'm loving the schoolgirl meets dominatrix meets romance novel! I think a pair of knee-high black boots would add a nice finishing touch!

Born for Joy said...

"Passion in any form, like getting dressed (even if that is a simple form), just says that I am here and that I exist and I am not ashamed." A very inspiring post which I completely agree with. I feel most myself when I wear obnoxiously bright colours but sometimes, I too feel compelled to return to the darker, simpler 'favourite clothes'.

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Lydia said...

I love the shapes here. That skirt is killer. I hear what you're saying too about your dorm mate having more clothes in your dorm than you but not being into them and not wearing most of them; I think a lot of so called "not fashiony" people are like that, which is interesting.

Laura said...

i love what you say about dressing up. it's so true. when i feel like different people i wear different outfits, and it makes me feel good!

i love your determination to only buy things from your 'dream' wardrobe. Wish I could stick to that! But as soon as i see anything i like it becomes my dream! :P

i used to wear all black, then all colours and no black, and now i wear a mix, and it makes me happy. whatever works for you, i say.

and your style rocks!

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Paola Gallardo said...

Your skirt!! I just loved it!

The Fashion Rendezvous said...

soooo cute! And your hair looks AMAZING in braids!!
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adeb said...

Nice pics :)

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Tessa G. said...

I know exactly what you mean about black outfits. I just feel the most classy, and often, the most sexy in them. I too, love colour and creative funk and feel like I'm letting myself down, but sometimes it just feeeeelss right.

Plus, it's not like you're rocking black slacks and a sweater, you've definitely done your job of spicing up black outfits!

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Magnet said...

Firstly, let me just say that: I LOVE THIS OUTFIT. I know what you mean, I think, btw. My favourite items of clothing also seem to be black, I've always been drawn to black but a few years ago I also dressed a lot more 'crazy' I've kind of grown out of that though, I guess you have to kind of change eventually. I think I have evolved and want to look 'interesting' in a different way now I guess. I'm obsessed with hot pink atm though.

Style Astronaut said...

Amazing post! I love the way you talk about things, like the what you say about fashion and what you say about everything, really :)

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the fashion turd said...

wonderful as ever. x

TheDollsFactory.com said...

dominatrix in a classy way is great
love how you use the light with your camera how do you do it what camera are you using and what lense

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HK_Barbie said...

Your pigtails look so cute! I hate getting judged as I'm posing for photos too! Love the outfit!

Ida Ayu Melati said...

very creative :)

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diane said...

This is great writing, because it goes straight to the heart. I believe what you're saying is true, and that people who are secure in themselves show it in the way that they dress. You can get past the trends, and wear what really reveals your true self, beautifully & creatively, without fear. It took me decades to find this out.

Ria said...

Um can I have your backpack pls. Love this outfit. I'm definitely a over shopper. *shame* Trying to be better though.

Taj said...

getting Givenchy Fw11/Miu Miu Fw10 vibes from that last photo...

lobsterleyla said...

I did the exact same thing when I was a teenager, I guess it's perfectly natural, at that age we want to know who we are and more: we want everyone to know as well just by looking at us.
As I grew older I started approaching style differently, it's less about showcasing who I really truly really really am and more about channeling a new character/vibe every day. My favorite thing to do with clothes lately is adapt the looks of my favorite video game characters to something I can wear at the office or to go party!

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Anonymous said...

I love the backpack! And just the overall prettiness of these photos. I like what you said in regards to the more basic sort of outfits-- Lately I've been thinking much less about making a statement with what I wear and I find I have a much more emotional attachment to my favorite clothes.

KVM Switch said...

This was forwarded along to me and I have to say, it's just an interesting and refreshing view on fashion and especially your skirt. I always wanted such a flexible type of entertainment which you have provided in your post. I really appreciated here and I am hoping the same best work from you in the future as well.