22 January 2014

tabi time

Illamasqua Scribe Eyeliner, Comme des Garcons Jacket (remixed) from Fall 2005, TAO CDG blouse (remixed), Undercoverism shorts (gift), Margiela Tabis.

Hi peaches. Long time no see I suppose, at least on this little internet space. I have been writing elsewhere -- Teen Vogue, Rookie, and The Style Con (twice a week right now). I also did some interviews, I've been keeping busy. We're back to working on our monstering photo series, Tayler and I, after about a month off. "Off" is an inaccurate word to describe what I've been up to though. I've never been so busy in my life! I've been at Teen Vogue freelancing M-F and then working on other projects on Saturdays. Today and tomorrow are the only days I've been home, but I've been working today too. The only downtime I've had was when Tayler came over to hang this weekend and she took these pictures. This is my dining room, I've photographed in here quite often over the years. It's really dusty and gross right now, but I think that's fitting, everything in it is old. Pirate ship looks.


So -- since last post: I bought myself a grail item of mine, Margiela Tabis. I'm considering them my 21st birthday present (yes, that happened last week!). It was also the blog's 7th year anniversary, which is absurd to me. I've wanted these shoes for probably at least half of the blog's lifetime. When I look back on my past posts, in between cringing, I can recognize myself in my inspiration even though how I interpreted things was a lot different then. Quite honestly, my inspiration boards are the same they've always been. I have just reformulated my process, trimmed the fat. I wrote about giving away a lot of my clothes for TSC actually


Three years ago buying these shoes would have been completely ridiculous and unfeasible to me. But a lot has changed since then. The other week, I was walking through the office on one of my last days at the magazine, staring at my feet in these shoes, in a Seditionaries tshirt (a gift from Hazel from a Rookie swap) and navy CDG skirt (bought for myself last summer), and I had this out of body experience. I was living -- am living -- the dream I first articulated on this very blog years ago. Sophomore in high school dreams being lived out as a Senior in University. I've already purchased so many of the things I've dreamed about, through my writing and other work. I'm in the process of doing so many other things right now I can't even talk about, and I'm so excited, because even a year ago I wouldn't have had the capacity to think myself capable. But now I'm the girl with the tabis I used to hyperventilate with jealousy over. A lot of it -- so much, actually -- has been because of the kindness of my friends and mentors who have believed in me and gave me a chance (and even their clothes, as you might have noticed from this post). I'm a lucky girl. 

Thanks for helping me with everything, peaches. I'm happy you're here with me too. I think I'll do you proud this year.

12 comments:

Julie said...

You look amazing, and this post was really moving. How few of us actually manage to get to that point when we can look at ourselves and look back, and realize we're actually living out our fantasies and dreams! Keep on doing you, girl. You're inspirational.

Ana The Zeka said...

This post makes me happy. So does your hair.

OrigamiGirl said...

Although I can get lost in a funk of despair at not being as big as the next person (and the next person can just as easily be you or Tavi some days), the fact that you have got these dreams to come true after not imagining it possible is also uplifting. I find your blog really inspiring in that way. I also feel excited on your behalf reading this.



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Irene Contreras said...

I'm so happy for you that you got your tabis! :)

SafiS said...

this is so great! i'm really glad you got your tabis,too.i was so excited to see you excited about getting them.congrats! i also think it's 100% amazing that we get to be a part of your journney and see you progress into infinite amounts of greatness.sometimes im afraid i wont progress.i feel the same all the time,i dont feel myself getting anywhere.
but it's awesome to see you getting where you want to be~!

estheresther said...

Funny I ordered mine on Friday! I've wanted them for 4+ years, and finally they were on sale, still super expensive but I knew I'd have huge regrets if I didn't buy them so I did!

jen said...

i see some of your second skin partner's look in this outfit. interesting!

Lydia said...

Happy birthday!! You look amazing.

Jennifer kris said...

This article makes me so happy.skin care tips I adulation that dreams become absolute if you don't accord up. Keep it up, guuuurl.

Virginia said...

Great, great!

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