06 February 2010

a new manifesto


my homage to ghost world, except my leather jacket is too big and im not as nihilistic as my idol



Last year was pretty crazy, and it ended on a really sour note. But lately things have been lookin up! I've realized (and it only took 17 years, jesus h macy) that things are only going to be sucky if you let them be sucky. We live very short lives, and I think most of the time we spend our days just passing by and doing a routine because we're told it's safe and we should do so.

I don't want mediocrity. I want to seek out and do everything I can possibly do to make myself happy, and hopefully the people I care about happy as well. I don't want safety, I want a thrill, I want to get what I want out of life and I'm gonna get it if I have to kick and scream and work to the bone and eat beans every day of my life. I'm a workoholic and I need to do what I love constantly and so I've decided to do so. It's that simple.

My life is gonna be changing so fast in the next few months, and I'm not going to be the same person by the end of the year. I'm sure one day I'll look back on this post and want to smack myself for my teenage naiviety, but honestly, I'll wait for that to happen. I've already become a very cynical, very jaded person and I don't need to add on to that. I want to work hard and be happy with the way I am and change what I can.

So here's to change! Let us all be empowered and learn about everything ever and damn the naysayers. Who has time to waste on negativity anyway.

So, hello! I am Arabelle version 3.0 and I'm ready to be awesome.