on complexes and vibes and moods and "trends"

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The internet is boring me. Since most of my days are spent on the internet in some form or another -- tweeting, watching Netflix Instant, blogging, whatever -- it's not really a surprise, but it's more about actually being tired of seeing the same things over and over again. I am tired of saccharine sweet. I am tired of being drowned in nostalgia everywhere I look.  I am, simply, tired. I want something new, fresh, angrier, more passionate, something -- anything -- than what I am seeing everywhere, all the time. Because to be honest, everyone is doing the same thing and it's boring the shit out of me. Real talk.

I hate everything in my closet right now. Everything. Nothing is simple enough, pure enough, clean enough, enough enough. Do you understand what I'm saying? I don't even know what I'm saying. I probably sound puritanical or something. Basically what I mean is that I am seeing the same vibe everywhere on the internet and where before I was inspired by it, now I feel stifled by it, like I can't escape it or even know how to escape it, and it's seriously infringing on my fashion and style boner.

Summer dressing is always dreadful for me because I am obsessed with layers, but in a way I am thankful to have to deal with the summer heat because it has forced me to look at my style differently. I don't feel like it's progressed much this year, I dunno if it's obvious to you guys since I hardly do outfit posts but I haven't been impressed by it recently because it isn't challenging enough.

I'm at this point where I don't know what I want in terms of style: simplicity? Hardly. I yawn at "effortless American chic" and ridiculously embroidered dresses and strange deconstructed works of art are still my favorite things. Do I want edgy? Ohmigod, if there is one thing I have never been it's 'edgy' or 'sexy'. I feel stupid and uncomfortable trying out those adjectives. That's the thing: it's me trying. When it comes to personal style, I never try. I don't understand when people ask me how I put outfits together. It's not rocket science, I just pick things instinctively. There is no great and complicated process. It happens in less than a minute. I remember times where I used to plan my outfits days in advance and would daydream about inspiration and it would be a thrill, but my life has changed and my processes have changed in response to that.

Maybe that is why I'm so bored right now. Everything is both homogenized and comfortable; I'm not being challenged, I'm not having to think, everything is just so and the pool of inspiration is just like a big pool of nostalgic glitter and lace and frilly over the top patterns and melted candles and cobwebs. That is fine. I get it, and I still like it -- it's just not for me anymore. It's still pretty and dreamy, but it's feeling a bit stale to me lately, you know? It's like when you listen to a song you love one too many times and it instead becomes a song you skip over on shuffle. I don't want to constantly be reminiscing about the past. The past never moves, never changed. It  isn't romantic to me anymore. It's just the past. You already know the past; it's nostalgic because you edit your memories of it to make is something you want to cherish. If we focus too much on it and model our present on it, then what have we created? Nothing. It's a copy of a copy of a copy. The total sum is zero. Nothing has been gained.

There's this thing Raf Simons said that has been lurking in my head for awhile now, I think it's pretty on point:

The future, for me, is romantic. I don’t understand people who say the past is romantic. Romantic, for me, is something you don’t know yet, something you can dream about, something unknown and mystical. That I find fascinating.


I want something else for myself right now. I'm not sure what, but I'll let you know when I've found it. Wish me luck.


19 comments:

Narita said...

This is creeping the fck out of me. Listen to me Arabelle. You're NOT quitting blogging. Right? I'm not excactly sure what you mean with "I want something else for myself right now. I'm not sure what, but I'll let you know when I've found it. Wish me luck." but to me it sounds like you want to give up on fashion.. don't. You're way too talented for that, you might just need some new challenges in your life, like you said yourself. Maybe it's an idea to set up a magazine. An innovative magazine that's gonna blow the minds of all the people in Blogging World, there, over the rainbow.

Hvit said...

Okay, I know exactly what you mean. Those "edgy" vibes of witchy stuff and lacy stuff, and all those blurred out old photos, they seemed so cool a while back, but it's getting old. Edgy isn't edgy unless you're challenging something! I can't think of anything truly modern. Maybe it's just these last few years passion for vintage, but it's awful to think all we can do these days in fashion is recycle.

Take a break from online. I know I have to make myself sometimes as it can get as stale as real life, and then it's no escape. I think either make the change yourself or just take a break. I don't mean quit or anything (I like your blog!) But just... Yeah. Breaks are good things.

And last thing, "Summer dressing is always dreadful for me because I am obsessed with layers," Haha; SAME. Summer clothes are AWFUL.

Arabelle said...

oh narita i'm not giving up blogging, i'm just re-evaluating how i approach fashion! don't worry! aha.

Narita said...

You sure? That's reassuring me a lot, you're one of my favorite bloggers. Well, a fresh view might be really interesting!

hitchhiked said...

I feel the same way. What's going on currently with fashion and one particular corner of the internet (that has Tumblr as its epicenter) is/was great, but now that it's everywhere some of the luster has worn off and that's never good for human progress because everything needs to keep moving forward. Guess the question is, what's out there right now that hasn't been fully realized yet and can help set the progress in motion again?

dahhlayne said...

Oh my gosh. I feel like this exact post was speaking my thoughts...like my thoughts in the future. I do have starting to get this sense that I'm getting a little bored of the same old trends, the same old styles, ...that nothing is original anymore. I think it really depends on what I surround myself with. I think I'm being exposed to more pieces and styles that are more high-end and not exactly creative, thinking-out-of-the-box, and FRUGAL enough for my college wallet. But great post. I like reading these kinds of things amidst fashion blogs...different from the usual "This is what I wore" and me thinking "I've seen enough Lita's now..." haha I wish you well in rejuvenating!

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Isabel said...

I feel the exact same way, and I need a break more than anything. In such a rut right now, because I'm uninspired, broke, pissed off and it's too hot to wear clothes anyways. I've decided not to do outfit posts until i'm ready again.

the visual jerbil said...

pseudo futuristic can be fun. surrealism? Play time!

Cess said...

If you are saying your going to quite blogging, please, please dont! Your blog is amazing, but I get what you mean that you feel bored doing the same things on the computer over and over again. You could try a new style, that might be interesting, but then again how does one go abot changeing ones style... Anyway I just wanted to say your blog is great and yeah...

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Christina said...

Style in and of itself is pretty empty. This is sort of the Catch-22 with sincere, creative people who have great style as a natural extension of their personality, and they want to share it with other people: it makes you conscious of how you put yourself together in a way that you never were before, and that was probably what set you apart in the first place.

I've noticed more and more of the fashion bloggers I like are getting introspective lately...s'pretty cool.
Here's my confessions about buying clothes to mask my anxieties about REAL problems
http://kzspygv.blogspot.com/2011/07/winding-down.html

Sophie e Zara said...

Well i feel the same way too.I really like your blog and your opinions and style,i think you're really talented.Luckly i'm not the only one that thinks that blogging(or fashion or both)needs something new,but is there something that isn't done yet?.Sorry for my bad english,but i'm italian!Oh and i hate summer clothes too,if it was up to me i'd wear sweater and boots all the time.

Anonymous said...

I get it, today's style became so damn boring!!! I used to love it but now everyone's just trying to copy what they think is IN. I think it's time to move on- when no one is inspiring you it's time to inspire yourself try thing and test your boundraies don't stop yourself just becuase everyone ells are stuck!

Love your blog goodluck!

lobsterleyla said...

I think I know what you mean. Check out biorequiem.com if you haven't yet. Sure cure for the fashion blues. In any case, we're changing all the time, it's great to explore something thoroughly and then move on. I wish you luck on your fashion adventures!

Ria said...

So with you on this. I've noticed it more this week that I've been alone with nothing to do but be online. I can't watch my favorite shows without my bf so I'm just netflixing/downloading whatever and trying to keep myself entertained with the internet. I pretty much wanna slit my wrists. Everything is so blah, there's nothing to make me sit up in my chair and oooh and ahh.

Anonymous said...

uff..so its like 'its not you...its me' It would have felt more original If you had just screamed ...'I'm hating on fashion blogging,,the bloggers..their pretty faces and clothes and skinniness?!' 'Bored' mmmphhtt...seriously what is it that you do exactly???
Silly little rant.

lobsterleyla said...

"It's just the past. You already know the past; it's nostalgic because you edit your memories of it to make is something you want to cherish. If we focus too much on it and model our present on it, then what have we created? Nothing. It's a copy of a copy of a copy. The total sum is zero. Nothing has been gained."

This struck a cord, and not at all a style-related cord. I'm saving it as a reminder.

canvas print said...

I couldn't agreee more, don't stop!

Born for Joy said...

This really hit me. Not literally, of course.. When I turn to Tumblr for inspiration, it is the same old thing; skinny little nymphets in Jeffrey Campbells with flower crowns beautifully framed in a vintage filter. Or it'll be a girl in a black maxi-dress, creepers, with black lipstick and the cross of St. Peter on her forehead. And that stuff is all very pretty but now it's not special. It's all old. And if I cannot take inspiration from the masses of pictures like that then what is there to take inspiration from? I try to connect with things that aren't directly 'fashion' and I avoid shopping in high street shops. But still, I'm bored..