09 April 2012

blah blah outfit blah

Blazer: Vintage Button Up: Thrifted, similar available here. Harness: Zana Bayne Pants: American Apparel Sneakers: Nine West (c/o)

Blah Blah outfit Blah. I tried changing the color (to green) but the pinkish undertone of this hair dye wouldn't leave my hair so I had no choice but to stay purple. Whatever. I'll change it up next time.

I don't know where my head is at the moment, I am incredibly happy some days but other days I can't be bothered. Today is one of those days. I am doing the best that I can though. It's funny -- every time I take photos sitting down in this room I can remember it being one of my off days. Maybe it is my off corner.

These pants are a source of contention in my head. I really dislike Dov Charney as a person and I think his practice at American Apparel totally sucks, but I love these pants. I can't even lie, I totally adore them and would buy a billion more if I had the money. The upside is that I got these for $40 at the AA Warehouse on 23rd St when it was open (is it still open? It was like a month ago). I'd never pay full price for these pants, god bless them. I felt so dirty when I purchased them, but there were really no other alternatives; I knew I'd wear these to death, there are no other pants I like right now, they go with everything, they are lazy pants for every occassion. I hate that I have to defend the purchase to myself though.

Sometimes it sux being so ~correct~, even though being 'P.C' isn't a bad thing and shouldn't be treated as such. I just get exhausted from thinking about politics and debating things sometimes. I'm always 'on', I am always critiquing, I am always dreaming of something better, I want more, all of the time, always. I am a perfectionist dreamer of the future more than anything else. I'm not a romantic about the past or even the present. I just want more. Everything. All of it. But working for it can strip me down to the marrow.

21 comments:

julia aka garconniere said...

have you ever seen my interview with jes sasche and holly norris about their american able project? both of those awesome folks are super gay and super critical and fantastic and i had a great conversation about brands that have shitty marketing and douchey CEOs and this post reminds me a lot about it.

this is part of what jes said when i asked she what she felt about wearing a brand that is really sexist and shitty when you are a working class queer person with a disability: "Humour is my life. On the surface, it’s easy to take me less seriously because of it, but humour also gets you in the door in a way that a rebellious placard never will (lamentably). Me boycotting AA is ridiculous. You show me a fashion line that rocks my disability politics. None of ‘em do! I’ll wear what I want to, because my body, like everything else, contradicts itself."

http://www.wornjournal.com/html/american-able/

it's a really really big debate and a conversation i want to hear more of. great post as always, arabelle.

Lydia said...

I hate the culture of AA too, but damn I love their leggings!! That's how they get you. The hair looks good! Too bad the green didn't take yet. And I love this room.

Victor said...

I do understand what you mean, but corporations tend to be such evil things. I don't think you should beat yourself up to much, nobody is judging you for buying the pants...they look awesome on you and that is all that matters.

Daniel said...

awesome pic!! Love the background//!!

C.A.R. said...

Haha well, maybe you'll get better luck with your hair next time! And nice pants, i have to agree!

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Cassie said...

I shop at Primark, so I understand your guilt. (The trousers are nice though.)

Mariana said...

Aw, I can't accurately express how great it is that you do strive for so much more and better things. This is why you are such a fantastic blogger and, in my opinion, one of the best. I hope you find some kind of resolution to your troubles, but until then, keep on doin' what you do because you're so good at it.

Joana said...

I love your blog for being so different and so honest. I would've bought the pants too, I believe, if I had had the chance. They're awesome pants :)


xo Joana

Katrina said...

You're a great blogger. And honestly, I feel the same way you feel about AA, except with Urban Outfitters. I can't wear American Apparel. They make sizes for girls who don't have an asteroid sized ass. But whenever I purchase from Urban Outfitters, I feel like...dirty. Because it's so expensive, and they've been noted to steal ideas, and they've been noted to yank LGBT merch from stores...it's all just so gross. But I effing love their clothes. So I bite the bullet.

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Maddie said...

I feel the same way when I shop at AA

Magnet said...

Ah, I know exactly what you mean, I think the culture of AA is actually really freaking gross, but I have quite a few of their skirts.. and shirts.. and tights, hmm. I wish I knew how to make my own clothing.

Emma Matthews said...

I love your blog, lovely photo.

Emma x
http://beautyandrags.blogspot.co.uk/

Katia said...

I definitely think being an idealist is, though totally honourable, so tiring. I wish there were an easier balance, of sticking to your morals without getting exhausted by doing so.

I love your hair :) And the pants. Screw one or two un-ethical purchases, we're human!


xo
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lehappy said...

ah this pants look amazing on you. I also find Dov Charney disgusting though.. funny thing is i have to do a whole research about him and his company for school, its going to be fun!
Anyways, I love your blog so much. youre absolutely inspiring!

Fidelia Salsabila said...

you still awesome with that purple hair <3

http://fideliasalsabila.blogspot.com/

Bubble My Licorice said...

I love your hair! Seriously! Well in Greece we don't have american apparel but when I visited a store abroad the prices were INSANE.
You should stop overthinking about small things like leggings it will propably make you much more happy :)

kira said...

aw, feel better! American Apparel is bullshit, but I buy a lot of their stuff. It's a lose-lose situation. I can't help myself.

thephotohobbit said...

Aargh I love those legging/pants! Not many people can pull them off but with the choice of your outfit and the background, they were perfect. -Britney http://thestylehobbit.wordpress.com/ (My blog)

Anonymous said...

LOL yes the warehouse sale is still open.
its going on til june i believe.

and i love the purple i think its great.

Anonymous said...

girl get your AA pants secondhand! ebay, buffalo exchange kind of situations. i find SO MUCH secondhand AA stuff, it's everywhere. or at least make an effort to look for secondhand first before buying new ones . . . but i'm sure you've already thought of that and i'm just being redundant.

Danielle said...

Two ways I justify my AA purchases, for what it's worth:

1. Made in America! Child-labour-free is worth the premium in my opinion.

2. Charney may be a pervert, but he's not a hypocrite. He never pretends to be the pope, all the pretty women that work there are old enough to make their own decisions, and who am I to get all judgemental on their choices?